I wasn’t expecting to feel this way again. I have felt a lot more stable and grounded this year. I experienced happiness for the first time after a rocky first two years. I am feeling very lost and scared and weak at the moment today….I am afraid that I have lost my strength and chance to be happy. I am hoping that is just an irrational thought. It’s hard for me to feel optimistic right now, but deep down I think I know I cant and won’t give up. Please let me find my way, I’ve got a lot of livin and lovin and laughin to do.